Feeling contemplative lately and a little sad. Christmas is coming, but it still seems like it should be July. I haven't felt this way since Carmon died over 32 years ago.
On July 17th, I lost one of my best friends. He didn't die but was stolen from me by a drug. To say that I miss him would be an understatement. I still pray for him every day, but I know he has his agency and even God won't interfere with that, no matter how much the people who love him pray.
Last Christmas was a wonderful season. We were a family. This year feels so empty. Sometimes I can hardly catch my breath for the sorrow I feel. I can't even talk to him. I can't wish him a merry Christmas. I can't give him a gift. All I can do is cry and pray and cry some more and he doesn't even know it. He thinks he was "just a project" to me. He is so much more than that. I love him because Christ loves him.
I am so sad that he doesn't feel either love.
Monday, December 15, 2014
Sunday, December 14, 2014
It has been a long time since I have posted on my blog. Last February, I was approached by a group of friends who were passionately concerned about their children's education. As a result, my business partner and I founded a charter school. George Washington Academy is a back-to-basics school where we still pledge allegiance to the flag, sing patriotic songs, teach handwriting, teach phonics and a sequential math that doesn't muddy the waters. We have science, history, geography, and other social studies in an integrated, thematic format. Our sixty-five children are happy and are learning.
I am the principal, school counselor, and I teach a class of fourteen fifth graders, five sixth graders, and two seventh graders.
Needless to say, by the end of the day, I am beyond tired. After all, I am seventy years old! The children wear me out yet fill my well so completely that I love each and every one of them.
I am truly blessed.
I am the principal, school counselor, and I teach a class of fourteen fifth graders, five sixth graders, and two seventh graders.
Needless to say, by the end of the day, I am beyond tired. After all, I am seventy years old! The children wear me out yet fill my well so completely that I love each and every one of them.
I am truly blessed.
Saturday, November 15, 2014
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Call Me a Prophetess
I was cleaning out my e-files and found this document. I wrote it the day after the Presidential Election in 2012. Call me a prophetess.
My predictions for a
second Obama term:
Israel will fight back against Iran and other radical
Islamic nations and the entire world will turn on Israel. Israel knows she must defend her existence
alone. The USA is no longer her ally. I think she’s shown restraint up to now hoping
for a Romney victory. I only hope that
when that happens, it will usher in Armageddon and Christ will come because I
think that’s the only real hope for us now.
Obama will invoke executive privilege more often until
Congress is emasculated so as to be non-existent. The balance of power our founding fathers
gave us will be gone. The Constitution won’t have a thread to hang by. The country will be run by the unholy
trinity: Obama, Pelosi, and Reid; and the even more unholy powers (and money)
behind them.
Gas prices will skyrocket.
Taxes will go up. Inflation will
run rampant.
The national debt will continue to skyrocket with no budget
and no concern for the future. Taxes
will go up.
Small businesses will continue to fail. Unemployment will continue to grow. Regulatory agencies will spin even more out
of control.
More people will be on welfare, unemployment, and food
stamps than ever before.
Islamic nations will continue to be appeased and terrorist
attacks will increase. There will be
more violence in the streets of America as people become more afraid.
The conservative media will be driven underground and the
only “truth” the American people will hear is the party line from the White
House. The heinous cover-up on Benghazi
is just the beginning.
In my house, I will serve the Lord. I will prepare my home as a place of
refuge. As Christians, we are going to
have to band together for mutual support.
I will continue to pray for my country because I love her, but I believe
God will withdraw His hand from America.
This people have chosen taking God’s name from the platform, public
buildings, and the public meetings. They
have chosen abortion, gay marriage, legalized marijuana, and assisted
suicide. They have chosen to spend more
than they make. They have chosen to
throw Israel under the bus and God said in the Old Testament that any nation
that fights against Israel will be punished.
I think that the scripture is still true and God will not be mocked.
I hope my children love me enough to take care of me when I
can no longer do so myself because under Obamacare, I will be disposable when I
get old. It will be cheaper for them to
give me the suicide pill – which I will refuse to take. So when they take away my pension and my
Social Security and my Medicare because I am a drain on society, I am counting
on you, Kids!
Here are my thoughts: Romney is a godly and prayerful
man. He would have been our best hope to
pull us back from the brink. An ancient
civilization had the same experience we had last night. They, too, were a government by the
people. As long as the people of that
nation were faithful to God, they prospered.
But as soon as they turned their back on God, their government became
corrupt. Here’s how it was described at
the time: Helaman
5: 2:
“For as their laws and their governments were established by the voice
of the people, and they who those evil were more numerous than they who chose
good, therefore they were ripening for destruction, for the laws had become
corrupted.”
People don’t realize that they were not voting for a man: they were
voting for a set of professed values.
Romney’s values were reflected in his platform – God firmly in place as
our country’s center; protect the sanctity of life from the womb forward;
marriage between one man and one woman; fiscal responsibility; support Israel –
just to name the key ones for me. Then
there is the democratic platform – take the name of God out of any reference
(can’t even say God-given – yes, I know they put it back under protest, but the
people on the convention floor booed when they did); support gay marriage;
continued support for Roe vs. Wade (abortion); government dictating to
religious institutions that they have to pay for birth control and abortion in
their insurance plans, even though that is against their faith. And the American people chose the Godless
ideals last night. I pray for this
country and for Israel. I think the road
to Armageddon has been paved, for Israel will defend herself despite us. Obama has already thrown her under the
bus. Oh, and by the way, the ancient
people I mentioned? When they chose evil
over good, God withdrew His hand from their nation. Eventually they were destroyed – wiped off
the face of the earth as a people. A
cautionary tale for us all.
12 ¶And this
shall be the plague wherewith the Lord will smite
all the people that have fought against Jerusalem; Their flesh shall consume
away while they stand upon their feet, and their eyes shall consume away in
their holes, and their tongue shall consume away in their mouth.
13 And it shall
come to pass in that day, that a great tumult from the Lord shall be among them; and they shall
lay hold everyone on the hand of his neighbor, and his hand shall rise up
against the hand of his neighbor.
16
¶And it shall come to pass, that every one that is left of all the
nations which came against Jerusalem shall even go up from year to year to worship
the King,
the Lord of hosts,
I pray for the
Savior to come and save us from ourselves.
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Sunday, Sweet Sunday
There is a song from the musical Flower Drum Song with this lyric:
Sunday, sweet Sunday, with nothing to do.
Lazy, and loving; my one day with you.
I don't have a special someone to have the one day with, but I am looking forward to a day of rest. I have been working almost non-stop for weeks so that our new school, George Washington Academy, can open tomorrow. I've always had faith that we would make despite the apprehension of others and the critique of naysayers. In the end, everyone pulled together and went the extra mile and we are ready.
Tomorrow, I stand before my own fifth and sixth grade class for the first time since 1985. All prayers appreciated!
Today, I will rest.
Monday, August 4, 2014
Jayne Eyre
To say it's been awhile since I've posted would be the queen of understatements. I have been so busy getting ready for my new school to open that I've rarely had one minute to myself. Needless to say, today I won't be wordy.
I had insomnia last night, so at 3:00 A.M. I was on Facebook. My sister posted one of those online tests that are fun to take. This one was called "Which Gothic Character Are You?" My sis had tested out Dracula, which I found interesting. I decided to take the test just for fun.
My character was Jane Eyre. It's been so many years since I've read Jane Eyre that I don't identify with her, but the test description of why I am like her was spot on:
Beneath your calm exterior a storm is building. You know it and secretly you're afraid of it but you won't allow that to distract you from doing what you believe to be the right thing. You are resourceful and intelligent, both of which leave you with a feeling of alienation from your peers.
Hmmmmmm. Am I that transparent?
I had insomnia last night, so at 3:00 A.M. I was on Facebook. My sister posted one of those online tests that are fun to take. This one was called "Which Gothic Character Are You?" My sis had tested out Dracula, which I found interesting. I decided to take the test just for fun.
My character was Jane Eyre. It's been so many years since I've read Jane Eyre that I don't identify with her, but the test description of why I am like her was spot on:
Beneath your calm exterior a storm is building. You know it and secretly you're afraid of it but you won't allow that to distract you from doing what you believe to be the right thing. You are resourceful and intelligent, both of which leave you with a feeling of alienation from your peers.
Hmmmmmm. Am I that transparent?
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Dancing in the Rain
President Thomas S. Monson introduced this year's 184th General Conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints by describing the recent dedication of the newest temple in Gilbert, AZ. As with all recent dedication, the young men and women, ages 12 to 18, in the temple district delivered a beautiful cultural celebration of music and dance.
Arizona has been experiencing a significant drought and the Latter-day Saints have prayed many months for rain. Those prayers were answered as it began to rain heavily just as the program started and continued to pour throughout the hour and a half presentation. That didn't dampen the spirits of the youth as they sang and danced in the pouring rain.
How often in life do we pray for a specific blessing and wonder if our prayers have been heard? God does answer prayers in His own time and in His own ways. Often our adversities are really blessing in disguise, prayers answered by a loving Heavenly Father.
I hope I will always have the spiritual faith and maturity to dance in my rains.
Text copyright April 2014, Gebara Education
Picture of youth dancing in the rain from www.deseretnews.com
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